Here's a question. 
How would you feel if you believe in someone, n later learned that that someone has lied straight to your face?
Here's another one.
Would you confront that someone n question about the lie, or find solace in silence for you know in your gut that that someone will throw you more lies if you were to throw more questions? Is it not better to keep silent without knowing the truth, rather than speak up when you know you will be fed with lies?

The funny thing is, it's not even wanting to know the truth. It's about the give and take of honesty and trust, regardless of what the truth is about. When trying to find the right word for the feeling this entire issue has aroused, 2 words came to mind. GRAVELY DISAPPOINTED.

Man... haven't written for ages! Well, when i'm in the mood to write, my internet connection chucks a spack. Like now, it has decided to connect at 2 am *hmmppfff*. Makes me kinda lazy to post my journals, although inside i really want to!

But I gota write this, or else i'll probably forget soon. My baby Zayd, now 5 months, took the polio vaccine on 19 October '07. He was also weighed, and now he's a good 8.5 kg!! way to go!!! Since 2 weeks ago he's gained more control of his body. Now he rolls around a lot, even in his sleep (i said more control, not total control...) !! One night I woke up in the middle of the night n his feet were almost up my face!! I gota practically fence him with pillows n bolsters when he sleeps on our bed during the day. Coz if he sleeps on his tummy facing north, he'll probably (and actually did) wake up on his back, facing south, n a good metre away from his original spot.
Anyway, he's scheduled to have his next vaccine (DPT, Hep B n Polio) next month on 26th. We'll already be in Jogja on vacation by then!! can't wait!! 

Ain't he just the cutest???

Being robbed on the day you're celebrating the triumph of Ramadhan. 
I'm still not sure how to look at this situation.
On one hand, something like that's gotta be a darn hard blow to your day, makes you fume n fizz in the head.. On the other hand, i can't help but wonder, what sin have i committed lately to have this disaster unfold as part of its purging hands? And of course, later on, I was driven to think of other (worse) alternatives of the unfortunate event, and I thank God that it was only a couple of HPs that were robbed... Still thankful my baby wasn't kidnapped...

A couple of days ago i stumbled upon informations that just about threw me off my seat!

Well, I don't know why, but an urge just came up to google-search info on Ninjukai Taijutsu,  which to me is one of many forms of martial art. As it happened, I studied this art a looooooooong time ago (like 12 years ago) for a couple of years in Perth, Western Australia. I attained a green belt (the rank of Genin) before I had to return to my homeland, Indonesia.

Don't know whether this is just a passing phase or will actually be a permanent hobby, but now i'm just in LUURRVVE with anything crochet!! ^o^ The end products are absolutely wonderbar! ^^ n with tablecloths in particular, d crochet look radiates a sense of elegance. A large piece of tablecloth can actually become an heirloom! Understandable, coz it needs practically AGES to get a large one done.. I so wish I can make at least one large tablecloth.. *sigh* It really needs patience n persistence, that's for sure. A bit hard for me whose crochet productivity is based on mood! So far i've only made small n medium ones...